Difficult times have come and gone in my life. People too, have come and gone. The good days don't have a meaning if you haven't seen the bad. Today the sun shines and life feels good. Coming through the coldest winter in 30 years. Finding my body weakening and my hope and spirit sinking I was in the place where infection could walk into my body. It cut me down for weeks and I struggle against it still. As hope begins to grow and a sense of spring filters into my spirit I remember what "good" feels like. I remember the bad days but it only makes the good feel sweeter. Like strawberries on the tongue of a starving man.
Yet the return to health is not complete and the damage can never be fully renewed. Despite the loss, hope exists. Not as an oblivious optimist blind to reality. Instead, sober in the knowledge of pain to come and disappointment ever near; to turn from sadness to look at the flicker of hope brings a rainbow and lifts the spirit.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Illness and changes
I know it's been ages. I have opened my blog several times to write up updates. Each time there has been something pressing to do. I was stopped in my tracks by an illness that had me so powerfully in its grip that for 5 days i couldn't eat and suffered soaring temperature whilst feeling cold since the fever broke I have been too weak to leave the bed and feel dizzy after sitting up.
Today I have lain in the sun and feel enough strength to write. I write slowly using an onscreen keyboard. I select each letter and click with the thumb on my left hand. Some-days the mouse is too difficult to press and words are a challenge.
I have been absorbed in the last 3 months with developments in the charity Open Roads for which I am a trustee. This has been stressful and physically demanding. We eventually pulled out of a partnership with another group external to our county on the basis that we felt that there was poor representation of local people and our influence would be insufficient to do the role required.
I hope everyone had a great Easter bless you all.
Today I have lain in the sun and feel enough strength to write. I write slowly using an onscreen keyboard. I select each letter and click with the thumb on my left hand. Some-days the mouse is too difficult to press and words are a challenge.
I have been absorbed in the last 3 months with developments in the charity Open Roads for which I am a trustee. This has been stressful and physically demanding. We eventually pulled out of a partnership with another group external to our county on the basis that we felt that there was poor representation of local people and our influence would be insufficient to do the role required.
I hope everyone had a great Easter bless you all.
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