Gordon Brown is so obtuse how can you ever get a straight answer from him? I have heard him interviewed several times over the years and he never answers the question if it's tricky. He sidesteps the issue and deals with some other point.

eg
interviewer: People are concerned about x what are you doing about it?
GB: Well I think this is related to y (and then proceeds to babble on about how they are implementing a program in y)

No doubt he is intelligent but he is an intellectual bully and very unfulfilling to listen to.

I am sat here and I know I have things to write about but my mind is a bit frazzled by my work. The constant news about the floods and even more rain on its way, isn't helping with diversifying my stimulation. This is a difficult place, if I could go for a run that might help. This stage isn't helped by some of the other frustrations that are ever present.

So without giving vent to them here, I will sign off and try to channel my mind toward work!

So here are some pictures of the latest developments.

We start at the top looking down.
Brocolli, Kale and Cabbage just as Dad planted them.

My apple tree.

Runner beans.

The view from the deck toward the top.

In the picture (above) I am enjoying the view of my herb garden and the colourful flower bed which reminds me of my mother who will probably know the name of each shrub.

As I sit here this evening England is experiencing more floods and rain.I look back on a week of struggle and hard work. Went to see my client yesterday and had arranged to have a meeting with the UK business head to deliver some pretty messages. Struggling with posture and voice I tried to deliver a clear message. I can't say it was done well but it's done!

On Monday we went to London for the start of our last 3 groups. Linda stayed over in the hotel where we held the groups. What a posh but friendly place. The groups went well and our work quality is really top of the class!

This morning my mobile had a voicemail and I knew it was bad news. I didn't have the strength to open it by myself but when Linda arrived she heard the beep and helped me. The news was of my granny's passing the night before.

It was like a curtain fell and the dark loneliness of my isolation suddenly was staring me in the eyes. I felt the loss of every motionless nerve fibre that once obeyed my thoughts and responded to my emotion all endured in the 6 years of this wheelchair. The inability to be with the people so much a part of me. I wept and couldn't stop. I'm sorry Gran, sorry I haven't been able to see you in the last few years.

Week passed was so busy.The first 3 nights went on till late followed by an hour to get home. So 3 late nights and a full days work after each. No problem before my accident but now I can't do it without exhausting myself. The groups went well and Linda's exceptional skill at getting people to open up and excellent grasp of the project meant we had some great feedback!

I am pleased with the progress the business is making I feel we could be doing more and I would like to get another researcher to work with us.

The garden is looking so full of life. Flowers are opening all over. The vegetables are also looking great. Every journey I make around the garden reminds me of my father. He has become part of everything here. I find this knowledge to be quite comforting.

This week is set to be very busy and I better start preparing.

Made contact with Cathy recently. Cathy worked with me in Unilever as a product developer and later a marketing manager. So good to be in touch again. Cathy came to me through a network system that I use called LinkedIn (see the link for my profile). Many Unilever people are now members. Another product I use is called Ecademy , I find this delivers a different type of "feel " and is better for making a wide range of contacts.

Weekend over now. I have just dropped off the kids , came back and started to work. I finished a few things and now doing my blog, which I miss dearly.

I don't know if you wonder why I don't just do it when I have a "spare moment "? Well paralysis is cruel enough, in that, you can't do any activity like eating, washing etc. yourself. So writing this blog requires me to stop what I am doing, get setup, and then I can be alone with my thoughts while I use the computer adaptions to allow me type. It's slow. Painfully slow but I do it! Surprisingly this is a very important part of my make-up and strive to be independent.

I don't have a financial fallback. I have earned my keep all my life and I don't see any reason to change this. I have "cut my cloth"accordingly. I have a strict budget and I take pride in being frugal! I see waste as a "sin" against the earth which provides so abundantly. (This is quite an interesting way to look at every aspect of your life. It forces you to think about everything you might throw away. I say things like,"the plant worked hard to make that think before you throw it away! ")

I wanted to update my poetry blog with the strong emotions I have been having so I will sign off and have a go.

Anyone living in England, in the last few weeks, will be aware of the relentless rain. Many people have been rudely displaced from their homes. Pushed aside by the risking flood,invading their lives. As they rebuild their homes let us spare them a thought instead of complaining about Wimbledon delays or more overcast days!

I sit at my desk today, listening to music and contemplating the day ahead. Went over for dinner to my friend and colleague, Linda and she prepared a fantastic tuna steak dinner. We got to talking about the project we are busy doing. I think we will both breathe easier when it's over.

Today I have all the kids for the night I look forward to seeing them.

So back to the week passed. A busy week. Alex had a maths exam on the Wednesday and Physics and Biology on the Monday. I revised the sciences and his mother (a Maths Teacher) did maths. I believe the Monday Science exams went ok but maths had a few bits he wasn't sure of. I hope that the results are good!

Carmen was given honoured at a recent netball gathering in Sharnbrook. She received an award for The Best Player of the Year, The Most Sporting Player of the Year and a personal medal for a tournament her team won earlier. As Captain of the team, other parents were full of praise for her positive effect on their daughter. This from a player who was "not good enough" according to one of her coaches.