The emotional ride of life

The kids are here. They arrived last night. A story that hides many hidden emotions lies beyond the the events of their arrival.

Saturday. The e-mails from our client/fellow director begin to arrive I see that they are mostly about a meeting between the new Training company and our first client. The e-mails are also being picked up by Linda (also working from her home) . Pretty soon we decide we will need to discuss this and get together. I phone Colleen about the possibility that Linda could pick up the kids on her way.

I got a definite "no", because of other plans. So Linda duly arrives and we do the work. I do what I can and start dinner for the kids and guests. A simple meal of egg-fried rice and a sausage sauce. Now initially Colleen did indicate she would join the dinner but on arrival and seeing Linda's car, she stayed in the car. She wasted little time dropping the kids and left before the doors had closed.

I live in this world. Distorted by resentment, anger and unforgiveness. The hidden rocks that sink unwary canoes are noticeable by a small rise in the water. The complex navigation of river rapids is made more tricky by the hidden rocks. They will eventually erode with time and the constant flow. Sometimes you have to collide with them to shift them, to roll them away.

I have wrecked many a canoe on the rocks of resentment and still, some will not shift. They are not ready.

Growing Garden

Some pictures for those interested. My garden is 50% there.

Herbs

Strawberries and Raspberries

Beans Garlic and Salad

Rosemary , more salad leaves and potatoe

Potatoe and cabbage

Power, PC and People

If any regular readers missed the update last week, that will be because there wasn't one. There wasn't one because I had no PC for a few hours as the power supply broke down and I had to take it in for a replacement. A scary moment. But its OK now. Phew, a device which holds such a prominent place in your life can make you realise how repetitive your day to day routine has become.

I spend many hours in front of the dual screens I have setup in my office. Since being made redundant (or early retirement) because of my disability, I have tried to keep busy. I will never understand the logic of a company that expects and gets your loyalty and commitment but, when circumstances change there is little return of this. Let me explain, companies are made up of people, policies and rules don't count for much ,unless the people in positions of authority apply them. If you are rewarded in one circumstance a change of authority can see you passed over or even ejected. So you can move from having value to having no value. I did when I was disabled. Not immediately. No, I was given loads of support through people in position to do so. When they changed I realised I was finished, my value was zero and I was shown the back door and never mentioned again.

So now I have a small business and I am helping setup a charity for disabled people to improve their lives and also setting up another business doing training for the people who care for the disabled.

So now to the more important stuff... What about fun? Well my fun is doing things to keep busy, my children and my garden.

Anti-virus elections and life

Its a warm'ish Saturday morning. I sit here listening to some oldies, Diana Ross and the Supremes for the curious amongst you, and feeling a little bit mellow. I will often use my blog to reflect on the week passed. I will keep up this tradition and use the time to update you on my solo existence in this wheelchair.



How about this for interest to those who have a PC. This was featured on The Gadget Show recently. I always struggle with anti-virus software, Norton too slow and cumbersome, AVG OK,and so on. Now there is Yoggie. This isn't software. Its a PC you the size of a USB and it intercepts your internet traffic. In fact it even replaces your PC's IP address with its own! And because its hardware it can't be corrupted!


Do you know anything about Zimbabwe? Although the elections have been in the news, the plight of many is ignored. I have family living there and I made enquiries about getting supplies to them. My dad came across this chap who takes supplies up to various people on a merry mission. I have decided I would like to make a regular donation and to ask people up there to distribute supplies to local needy people. If anyone is interested in doing something give me your e-mail and I will put you in contact with this chap and the charity.


There's some strange behaviour being exhibited by the finches. Dude and Fawkes are making a nest. This would be normal but for the impression we had that they were both male!Dude is obviously male.Fawkes doesn't exhibit some of the typical male markings. If you know anything about Zebra finches, please let me know what to do!

For a little insight into the life of a man with a life checked from the pursuits of career, pleasure and material comfort you will need more insight than I am able to reveal in the musings of this blog. I do try to make it a conversation between you and me, I hope you will see fit to enter into the discussion.

Some images to help you,

My apple tree, with its spring frock of blossoms.













A view of my house from the vegetable garden










My raised vegetable garden.