OK I give up who is the "bundu basher"? (annonymouse comment yesterday)

I do like a bit of banter and enjoy comments, but let me say, my garden is not a bundu. Just a few weeds (I was told that weeds were good for the butterflies.) Anyway my lawn is like the Sahara!

Carmen comes over today. She is bringing her bike to get fixed. I am looking forward to it.On Tuesday she is taking a few friends out for her birthday (a late party).

I need a financial backer or partner to help me get a big idea for thought control of devices going. I have identified an invention that needs exploitation. It's big. Imagine dialing your phone without touching it or speaking or even moving.

It's a great day today. After thunderstorms and rain last night. Yesterday I took a short trip up my back lawn. Its always a trip for me and the wheelchair bumps and shakes all the way. To me it can be quite a ride, often stressful and painfull, but I have to see my plants and get out of the house. When I return, my wheels are full of mud and I leave a mud trail around the round the house.

Friday already! Eek! 2 more weeks before my hospital stay. I will have to step up my preparation.

Did a Google search on my name for fun. Don't we all do it? Came up with loads of info about people with the same family name in the USA. A branch of our family must have gone to America and some to Africa. Disappointing, only 3 references to me! So much for vanity!

OK, moto gp fans I will be with you all to watch the race at Laguna Seca. (Thanks for the reminder Brian) Who's your money on? Rossi is really storming along and the rest of the field is all over the place. I support Sete Gibernau but he's having another bad year on Ducati. Come on Sete.

So it's Tuesday, blistering hot by most standards and promises to get worse. Yesterday it was over 35 degrees and today will be worse. My attention is focused on getting my future both short and long term, sorted out. I want to make good use of my time in hospital and not waste it. At the same time I am trying to sort out my future after Unilever.

My vegetable garden is doing OK in the heat but needs regular watering. The grass is virtually dead with the heat and lack of rain.

Phew! Its hot in the office. Screens radiate a huge wack of heat. I don't know if you are aware, normal tetraplegia (or quadraplegia) has a side effect which results in the body's normal temperature response (shivering or sweating) unable to respond to the conditions. Typical tetraplegics don't feel sensation either. Thankfully I don't suffer these problems but to I still overheat because half my body is insulated by the chair.

OK so here's the "thing", I am going into hospital for August. It's just some extra rehabilitation, physiotherapy and stuff, to check out my abilities after 4 years. I want to do it but... I have bad memories of hospital and aside from all the boring aspects of lying around waiting for a nurse and sharing your space while hoping for an hour of the physio's time. Yes aside from all this hospital increases my sense of loneliness and isolation.

Now moving on, that comment in the previous blogg woke me up. Always have I felt that I adapt well to change. I must be getting lazy or old or both. I have not been able to make decisions. I keep looking for someone to say it's OK.

So I have started putting together my business outline for a consultancy. I thought if I started, it will help to put the mind straight. If anyone knows about setting up a consultancy type business please let me know.

Midweek. Sunny weather and promises to be a hot day. I was ill last night. Tummy trouble. I haven't had that for awhile and I don't like it. I would sooner stop eating than go through that ever.

As my time with Unilever will end soon and a new chapter begins I have been pondering the option open to me. I am going to start a consultancy on innovation and consumer research. I have to use the last 20 years of learning for something!

Seeing a specialist in brain injuries this afternoon to talk about my injury and treatment.

Thank you for encouraging words and feedback it helps a great deal.

I'm not very motivated to do much lately. It is taking ages to do this post.

Kids came over yesterday and we all went to the see the new Pirates of the Carribean. A fun movie with lots of good effects but a weak plot and ending which seems to set up a sequel.

I watched Oscar Wild's "An Ideal Husband ". I enjoyed that and found some of the cameos very moving. The story is about truth, love and honour.

Ok ,I am struggling to write both physically and emotionally so I am just going to try later.

It has been amazing weather here, very hot and dry. My mood has fluctuated and I feel overwhelmed by the sheer weight of all the issues, some big and others small.

I had Ruth and Alex over and they had lots of fun playing around in the sun with the hose and a plastic sheet they use as a slide. England's early departure from the world cup would normally throw Alex into a negative mood. We went outside and he made a perfect barbeque, which gave him a more positive outlook.

Friday night was great.Took a good friend to Nando's in Milton Keynes. Extra-hot Peri peri.Great!

I need to reflect on Thursday. Went to a lunch for Ian Norton, a good friend and colleague. He is one of the most successful scientists/inventors Unilever has left and the work he didn't seem to be valued anymore. So we disposed of 25+ years of experience and productive potential.

I am on the same disposal path and will be unemployed in January. Its just another challenge amidst all the others.