Very low today. I found yesterday a strain. I don't like to show my pain when my children are here and consequently I end up pushing myself too hard. I think it's days like that that make me spiral down into a pit of despair and hopelessness. I went to bed negative about my life, lay awake negative and woke up negative. I miss the care of a close friend, someone who can see when you are down, someone who picks you up when you fall. In the last 4-5 years (and especially the last 2) I have been trying to be"strong " I do a good cover up.

The lunch was OK. A bit too salty. We finished it off with a rhubarb crumble and cream.