I just don't feel good today. I feel a bit "queasy" . I might just have a break soon.

Yesterday my usual carer (Veronica) had to leave suddenly because of a bad back. A temporary replacement was found but without any training this is getting to be very tiring. I took 4.5 hrs to get up and dressed today. So stressful.

Life to me is starting to take on a different pattern. This worries me of course, but what can I do. I am losing the will to fight.

I think this this Christmas will be a sparse affair. I don't feel prepared or excited in any way.