My life is a mess.Littered with mistakes and useless dreams. The best relationships in my life, are the ones that don't depend on me.Talk about being afraid of commitment, I am so afraid to let others down, I keep everyone nicely seperate from the clutter. I am so sure that I will see them all dissolve away, like cats during fireworks. Never have I been insecure or dependent, now I am so sure of the importance of being "strong" even to fail to return a call or reciprocate any action. Is this any good for me?I don't know it's too ingrained now and anyway I can't test it because I think it's true.
I am at my home office desk it's just finished lunch. I don't eat lunch so I used the time to prepare my Christmas list for the kids.
This morning my car went in to have the fuel tank repaired. I also had a visit from some guys to do with renovation to my bathroom and hoist.I might be able to get a hoist to allow me to start walking!
Well back to work.
Ciao
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